Yesterday was an abysmal day. Ex wrote a scathing e-mail to me, after I counter-offered his insanely high spousal support demand with a low one. I am in shock. Still am shaken. His spite and anger and resent – everything came out. He knows about boyfriend, about my new tattoo…and he finally is taking the dog away from me, until and if “we gain mutual respect.”
I knew that I was going to be punished. I was waiting for it. It finally came. I could have done things differently, could have been softer or idk. But I know the result would have been just the same. I am hurting yet I am still so shocked, I don’t understand how he can take my beautiful dog away from me after 10 years of deeply caring for her. I knew he would do it, I was just waiting and it finally came. People told me that I could have maybe been softer to play his emotional manipulative game…but I did not. I was direct and in his words “dismissive” by e-mail. But he would waffle on about his emotions and guilt me like there was no tomorrow. Either way, he blocked me everywhere now and it is done.
His ego is beyond bruised. I will take a while to recuperate from his e-mail, his words still haunting me this morning as I wake up with my heart beat pounding in my chest. My baby girl, my dog. I love you and I am very sorry. I do not know whether I acted the best way or did the right thing or choose the best behavioral avenue, but I did it nevertheless. Separated in May and I will finally see a divorce petition filed in court. Hooray?
